When my mind and heart have been processing so much, it is hard to find the focus around which to begin. Our world is changing. Most of us know the density of darkness and are reaching for the light. We search for human connection and building bridges to higher ground. My focus now is to keep my own energy positive, inclusive, and solution-focused. My prayers are for moving toward our most benevolent outcomes, especially when we can feel so divided in holding onto specific results. My goal each day is to fill myself with so much radiant light of unconditional love that it leaks out into the world around me. Yes, my adoration of adjectives and togethering is a bit much for some. I like to think my love for humanity (both personal and general) softens others in ways that benefit the world. When buying lunch for the stranger behind me in the restaurant's drive-thru line, I feel a softening between humans with differing opinions.
I often feel like my life is a theatrical performance and I am merely an enthusiastic member of the audience. Lately, my life has been like a musical. This is one way I build my energy. I sing wherever I am. I talk with myself in public. I find myself funny. Though you will find me singing and dancing through some of my days, my life contains plenty of dark to contrast the light. My darkness helps me search for even more light.
In some way, my intentionally high energy level and appreciation in challenging moments and relationships has led me to more instant manifestation. When I am feeling aglow with the wonder of our world, more high vibration possibilities present themselves. Last week I was taking a bath while a friend watched our wee toddler. I was in the bath meditatively sending love bombs to people I love who are ill. As I got out of the bath, my friend called to ask if she could bring wee Charlotte to me so I could have more time by myself at home (instead of my leaving early to pick her up myself). Other pieces of my puzzle began to come together and my heart overflowed to others. There were so many awesome ripples from that one meditative bath that I cannot now recall them.
When M was dying, an extraordinary woman came into our lives to help us. Shari is a friend of a friend of a friend and is now a member of our family. She generally comes for several hours each week to do so many things a wife does: childcare, human jungle gym for children, play, laugh, hug, rub my back while I cry on the floor, dishes, laundry, shuttle children, prepare dinner and lunches, sell my goods on Craigslist. I tell her often she is my favorite wife. She loves on my children while I run errands, send emails, shower, and have dinner with other adults. Shari has been spending time with her mid-western family the last couple weeks and I've been on my own in parenting. It's a little hard to get along without a wife once you get used to having someone around to spot you.
In Shari's absence, another friend's friend's friend came to love on our children. This young woman from South America loves beautifully on my children while I get time to sort tax forms and run errands. I also get to practice my very rusty Spanish. New Spanish words are bending my brain in awesome ways. This new friend is working for us in her extra time to help her sister buy a home. And in my own zany ways, I let her know how much I appreciate her presence in our lives.
My family has planned and build our dream home perfect for our family of five. Now that we are a family of four, we are completing and selling the construction home. Just as I was ready to pay for home upgrades and staging, we received an offer on our home. Awesome. That buyer slowly backed out of the buying process, and in their place was another buyer. Just tonight we've had a counter offer accepted!
What amazing lives we get to lead when we open our hearts to ourselves and one another, when we find delight in the moment. There is such beauty in maintaining some unattachment to specific outcomes and watching our own stories unfold before us. I am so grateful for the awesomeness that flows through my life, in and through and out, like breath. I am so grateful for my lungs that open and fill me with radiant joy in each intentional moment. I am so grateful for the infinite possibilities of our humanity... and the freewill to move toward the light together.
I often feel like my life is a theatrical performance and I am merely an enthusiastic member of the audience. Lately, my life has been like a musical. This is one way I build my energy. I sing wherever I am. I talk with myself in public. I find myself funny. Though you will find me singing and dancing through some of my days, my life contains plenty of dark to contrast the light. My darkness helps me search for even more light.
In some way, my intentionally high energy level and appreciation in challenging moments and relationships has led me to more instant manifestation. When I am feeling aglow with the wonder of our world, more high vibration possibilities present themselves. Last week I was taking a bath while a friend watched our wee toddler. I was in the bath meditatively sending love bombs to people I love who are ill. As I got out of the bath, my friend called to ask if she could bring wee Charlotte to me so I could have more time by myself at home (instead of my leaving early to pick her up myself). Other pieces of my puzzle began to come together and my heart overflowed to others. There were so many awesome ripples from that one meditative bath that I cannot now recall them.
When M was dying, an extraordinary woman came into our lives to help us. Shari is a friend of a friend of a friend and is now a member of our family. She generally comes for several hours each week to do so many things a wife does: childcare, human jungle gym for children, play, laugh, hug, rub my back while I cry on the floor, dishes, laundry, shuttle children, prepare dinner and lunches, sell my goods on Craigslist. I tell her often she is my favorite wife. She loves on my children while I run errands, send emails, shower, and have dinner with other adults. Shari has been spending time with her mid-western family the last couple weeks and I've been on my own in parenting. It's a little hard to get along without a wife once you get used to having someone around to spot you.
In Shari's absence, another friend's friend's friend came to love on our children. This young woman from South America loves beautifully on my children while I get time to sort tax forms and run errands. I also get to practice my very rusty Spanish. New Spanish words are bending my brain in awesome ways. This new friend is working for us in her extra time to help her sister buy a home. And in my own zany ways, I let her know how much I appreciate her presence in our lives.
My family has planned and build our dream home perfect for our family of five. Now that we are a family of four, we are completing and selling the construction home. Just as I was ready to pay for home upgrades and staging, we received an offer on our home. Awesome. That buyer slowly backed out of the buying process, and in their place was another buyer. Just tonight we've had a counter offer accepted!
What amazing lives we get to lead when we open our hearts to ourselves and one another, when we find delight in the moment. There is such beauty in maintaining some unattachment to specific outcomes and watching our own stories unfold before us. I am so grateful for the awesomeness that flows through my life, in and through and out, like breath. I am so grateful for my lungs that open and fill me with radiant joy in each intentional moment. I am so grateful for the infinite possibilities of our humanity... and the freewill to move toward the light together.
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